Firefighter Family

Firefighter Family
True American Heroes <3

Wednesday, July 24, 2013

Losing my Mind one Gray hair at a time....

Being an at home mom surely has its advantages. Yet the last few days all I seem to do is clean, reclean and clean again. Its frustrating. I have @ 9yr old who is plenty big enough to help yet he would rather watch TV or argue than help.
I have shut TV off, grounded him from his DS and still nothing. I am seriously praying I get the FT job I applied for... yes I know that's time away from kids, but I am beginning to think Moms need adult conversation too, and some MOM time.

Saturday, July 13, 2013

Thoughts...

I find out simply amazing how you can be in same room as someone and feel so stinking alone.
Hurt Anger and frustrations are all that is there. Racing thoughts and sleepless nigjts.

Is it wrong to want someone to hold you each night, someone to love you unconditionally and to be 100% honest and truthful. Not sure what the future holds anymore just know I can't live like this the rest of my life.

#Broken

Thursday, July 11, 2013

New way to to start each day

I found this photo on FB Page tonight and it really hit home for me.

The last few days have been insane, dentist appts meetings sick kid you name it.
As I lay here reflecting on the day all I can think is I didn't do this or I didn't finish that.

Well what I did was way more important than anything else, I spent time with my kids, cleaned house and then cuddled with my little guy who isn't feeling well until he fell asleep.

Tomorrow marks another day of busy(if he's feeling better) groceries laundry etc.
But tomorrow I am starting my day of counting my blessings for 5 things instead of waking up and thinking oh man what will today bring!

Tuesday, July 9, 2013

Tuesday oh Tuesday

Today was another busy day in our household. Started off with a dentist appointment for my 9yr old.

Then home to clean house again for what seemed like the millionth time today. Got one room cleaned and my 2yr old decised to mess up another room, all I can think if ohhhhh seriously..... so I finish some room and go to the room he destroyed. No nap again today so between the besroom mess, playing in everything he could touch, to dinner time I was already exhausted.

After dinner it was baths and finally they were both tired. Mom got down time and all I can think is hmmm what to do. Blog clean house or sleep. Well I'm assuming Blogging won because here I am :)

I did apply for a job here in town today not because I don't want to stay home with these little monkeys but because right now we need the extra income mama needs a new vehicle by winter all that stuff. Praying whatever direction I take good will come.

Monday, July 8, 2013

Happy Monday to Me :(

After a late night/early morning of being up waiting for my BF to get home from a fire call, I never heard my alarm go off this morning woke up an hour and a half later than I planned, never heardy phone ringing when the mom of the kids I babysit calling me.... then my kids wake up and have been hooligans all day!

Then my grandma calls and wants to know if we want to go out for lunch.... sure we will. Well we had Pizza Hut my 2yr old was like an uncaged monkey the entire time we were eating lunch. Bouncing around being silly and of course I am embarrassed like stop and behave already! After lunch we went and had ice cream, and he was an angel.

I seriously want a NAP and he's wired for sound full of ambition.... wish I could bottle about half of his energy!!! :)

Sunday, July 7, 2013

Reflections.......... <3

Sitting here reflecting on the day.
Watched the news, and seen the posts and videos of the Prescott firefighters funeral procession.

Words can't even describe how the families friends and coworkers of those men have to feel.

My heart breaks for them, we also are a firefighter family.

My boyfriend is a Volunteer Firefighter and tonight they were paged out for a Mabas call(mutual aid to another fire department), we have a 2 year old son and I have a 9yr & 11 yr old son. Tonight as he was leaving our 2yr old says to me mama .... daddy go fire he be back OK.

I stood there for a second to take in what he had just said to me ... my fear of him going on a call and the unknown what if or what can happen situations had just been confirmed by my 2yr old. He knows his daddy is a Hero and don't worry mama he'll be back confirmed in not so many words and a hug and kiss from him takes my worry away.

As my 9 year old sits by me and little man falls asleep Brax says to me mom I want to stay awake until he gets home, just to make sure he's safe. Once again I am speechless, but this time its different he knows some calls are dangerous, he has seen Ladder 49 and Backdraft......

In the midst of all this commotion tonight we got a good night phone call both kids went to sleep and I sat awake until I got the text I'm Home....... it really is all the small things that matter.

Tonight has opened my eyes to a whole different prospective with the 12 fallen firefighters in Texas, then the 19 in Arizona, all I can say is each and everyone of you is a true American hero.
God Bless You all, and RIP.